[CASSPH] 365 days of waiting, and still waiting.

Lately it has become more of a burden than an inspiration when we read and hear the phrase, "Always keep the faith". We ask ourselves, "Is there still a point of holding on to it? Is it still reachable? Or will it be just a glint hope that's beginning to fade away into the darkness?".

The answer is, "We don't know", and even I don't have an answer for that.

Somehow, because of this feeling of anxiety, we tend to blame it to them and their existence. We blame JaeChunSu for being selfish and unfair, only thinking about what they want and not consulting HoMin about it before they took their own measures. We blame HoMin for not leaving SMEnt and sticking to the contract, when it's pretty obvious that they are being manipulated and used for profit only. But each of one of them knows what's best for them. They are the only ones who knows it. We try to understand, but we have to accept that there are things that we could never understand, especially with the things that's happening to them right now.

It does hurt not being able to share it with them. It cuts us deeply, but it cuts them deeper not being able to tell it to us that they are hurt too.

Still, what's the point of all this? What is the point of feeling hurt and abandoned over and over again when you can easily forget them?

But honestly, can you really forget them?

Their music that touched your heart.
Their smiles that lifts your soul and
their unconditional love for you despite everything?

Yes, it is unconditional love that makes us hold on. There is no other reason. You don't think about it, you feel it. You feel it still beating there in your heart.

So even if the whole universe conspires against them, against us, we won't back down. We won't give up. Because we know that they will continue to exist here in our hearts, may it be as TVXQ or as Yunho, Changmin, Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu. As five or as individuals.

It is not a matter of leaving, because we will never leave them. It is a matter of moving on when that time will come, not sooner but later. Moving on with more love and support than what we have given in the past.

Being a Cassiopeia will not end when TVXQ ends, because the stars in the sky won't disappear once they exist and will continue to exist in the darkest night.


Keep shining Cassiopeia. Keep shining.
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- Maecy (yceamaecy@cassph.org)

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